Me Now!
After reading my story you can realise just how hard it has been for me, but it proves that anyone can get through it. I was only 14 when that happened to me and now, I can still remember it as if it happened yesterday, but it makes me realise just how much I have achieved, and just how brave I was.
You also learn to realise just how special those around you are. My parents and family have been with me all the way through this, and boy have they had a rough time. Sometimes I think it can be harder on those around you, than on yourself, the reason being if the worst were to happen to me, their the ones who have to live it when you are gone.
At the time of my ordial my sister was 8 years old. She was an absolute star. I don't think I ever saw her cry once and whenever she saw me she would tell me everything is going to be fine. Even at 8 she knew she had to be strong.
Recently I had another scare in May '04. I found another lump on the top of my neck, just under my chin. and this was also the time when there was a new member of my life; my boyfriend Dave, he knew about my Cancer at 14 but had never lived it, so for it to happen again was not so bad for us, because we had already been through it once, but for him he said felt awful. When I found out I had to have another operation I instantly started to cry because I thought the worst was happening again, Dave said as soon as he heard me cry he felt sick and didn't know what to do.
He was great, all my family were, sending me flowers visiting me in hospital (thats the best part of being in hospital all the gifts and cards) I got my results, all was clear it turned out to be a traumatised gland from my first operation. (How strange! Glands can be traumatised : )
Now a days I'm a new person, I'm more confident than I was before my operation, even with my scars. I think this is because it gave me a new outlook on life, and not to care what people think because lifes too short. I have been in ample drama productions, I am sitting my A-levels now. My family are stronger than ever. I go away with my boyfriend on holidays to exotic places : ) Life couldn't be better.
The good thing is people treat me like a normal person, and don't tip toe around me not knowing what to say, or how to ask a question if they have one, because as I told them people can learn from others, and they enjoy learning from me.
You get the odd idiot who has nothing better to do than to criticise people's appearances but it just makes me see them as ugly not me. I learn to deal with them just by biting my tongue and coming back with some witty comment. (Which doesn't happen often)
